I am tired. And busy. And overwhelmed.
On my best days I don’t pretend to know how (or even if) prayer works. So when I get like this, I am unsure what to pray or even how to pray. And after some of the stuff I see at work, there are times I wonder why I even bother.
A while back, I was reading Thomas Merton’s Thoughts in Solitude and came across the following prayer. I am praying it a lot these days.
MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.